Life

I've been busy lately; if only I had more time to do all of the things I am working on right now. Between my bumping social life, working 30+ hours a week, going to church, photography, story, writers group, working out, looking for a car, meeting with my mentor, getting set up for school and the endless cleaning I always find myself doing it's no wonder that my blog has been slow. I owe you a proper update on the matters of my heart..... my heart needs it too.

As always my life is go-go-go and doesn't show signs of stopping. Currently I am working about 30 hours a week at McDonald's. I have officially replaced Trisha as the "Hostess/lobby girl" and should be getting my new uniform (a snazzy red button up and scarf) shortly. I'm frustrated because I have been there for over a year and haven't been certified in any of the areas in which I am trained, I haven't been trained or certified in areas I want and need to be (like the grill/kitchen) and I haven't heard any feed back on my crew review. In February I had expressed interest in becoming a crew trainer and since then nothing has moved forward with that even though we have no one in that position now, and I am the only one who wants to do it. Because of all of this I considered quitting and applying to work for US Bank in the call center. It's full time work starting at $11.50/hour.

I haven't quit, and don't think I will. I might as well stick it out there until fall. Originally, I was planning on attending Century College for a semester to obtain a Women and Genders studies certificate. Since I can't afford to return to Northwestern until I pay off my loans I might as well continue my education elsewhere. And with my desire to work with women and families and youth in the church I thought it was a mighty good plan. But now I don't know if that is really what's best for me. 

In order to attend school, I would need to have a car or be able to move out both of which are not impossible, just not likely. The plan was to live with Crystal (if her mom let me) and then carpool with her and DeLaney to classes. But something about it just didn't feel right, and still doesn't. I honestly can't afford to pay rent, phone bill, current school fee's, outstanding loan payments, and gas and food and other things working part time while being a full time student. Not to mention I don't think I am ready to be a student yet. This is different from the fear of failing that plagued me before... I think God has something else for me.

More on life later!