on a personal note: chaos

Tonight has been one of those nights where God is giving  

a | b | u | n | d | a | n | t | l | y

and my arms are just overflowing with things to work through. 

My life is in dysfunction and in the healing process of becoming functional I'm in the stage of chaos between old and new behaviors. Chaos is a part of transformation. I'm trying to come back to my life-verse (Phil 3:8) and to pattern my life after it (read my about & bio if you're curious to know more)... this is how I want to function. But instead I'm increasing in my material wealth and have abandoned eternal, heavenly treasure-seeking. I'm blatantly unrepentant. 

The last six months have been one of  unfamiliar  darkness; this is self-imposed. 

I cried out to be changed but I'm seeing now that I've been in this changing motion all along. 

And if I'm in motion constantly then I cling to the hope that first begged my heart to change:

I am confident in this: the He who began a good work 

in you will bring it to completion at 

the day of Christ's return.

There are good things to come. 

not yet | but later*

I'm not there yet, but I'm on my way.

*"not yet but later"  is my friend Justin's idea and little did I realize the depth of meaning behind such a simple phrase. We sat, parallel, and with doodles and lists on cheap notebook paper birthing the words of wisdom. I'm quite certain these words of wisdom are universal and I hope to use them where they see fit.