November, Honey

Hello Honeybee's. 

If only you could see how beautiful my house is; I'm quite falling in love with it! Oh, and happy November! October, darling, you'll be missed but more and more I think it's time to let you go. Again. Last month was filled with romance, and adventure and some great revelations and small heart renovations; what will this month bring?

This afternoon, as I sip my tea and watch the sun filter through the bare branches and stubborn leaves, I feel another weighty break through emerging. You know that feeling you get when you know you did something wrong, and that one person who you wouldn't ever want knowing about it already knows, but you haven't addressed it? This is that, mixed with relief; it's bittersweet.

After spending nearly every day together 2 weeks ago Justin and I didn't see each other last week until Friday. And again on Saturday... he stayed the night. We made dinner together (chicken broccoli Alfredo, with garlic bread and cheesecake) and watched Bridesmaids (well, most of it. The Redbox disc was so scratched the whole movie skipped). Then we fell asleep under the glow in the dark stars the pepper the basement ceiling; it feels so good to be tucked into his arms. And at the same time something is missing. This didn't used to feel so cheap. Beginnings are always the sweetest aren't they?

 {100 thanks and givings}

17. Lindsay and Laura for planning and preparing an amazing meal at Sunerchomai last night!

18. Sisters: Brianna, Emily, Mariah, Tina, Sara, Chrystal, Sorina, Hannah, Ruthiey, and Cait

19. two days off in a row (today and tomorrow) to rest, and refocus.

20. payday is this Thursday (my first full paycheck from Subway)

21. the bible studies that Sara is leading me through

22. shared experiences; those "signs" from other's lives that help you know where to go (or not to go).

23. Jake, who is saturated in the Spirit, who overflows Truth through his life.

24. This poem by Ruthiey: 

truth is costly

but lies cost so much more

they bite, scramble, fray you all about

they blacken, bruise and lessen

lies can seem costly, comforting, alluring

but truth is worth so much more

treasure it like diamonds

wear truth all over your heart

so lies, costly lies, have no inlet