on a personal note:

I know the month is now half-over and so this post is slightly off-dated but I couldn't help it. So, I don't even know where to begin. This entry has been written, re-written and started over a few too many times in the last few weeks. Well here's this month in short (just to catch you up a bit)... I'm far to tired to write something poised and scripted to literary excellence.

Justin and I have been hanging out like crazy the last few weeks. We see each other almost every other day. He's making my life a movie cliche. But I don't mind. One Thursday when I went downtown to meet with my mom he and I met up; he introduced me to his friend Greg (who is nearly blind, a recovering addict and unbelievably friendly). We walked around the skyways until we dropped Greg off. Then Justin and I had quite the adventure! We walked to the river front and on the way we stopped at the post office, which led to a mini-adventure in attempts to solve a mysterious robbery for a reward of $1000. Once we abandoned the challenge we headed to Mill City Ruins Park, made fun of the people on Segways, then crossed to the other side of the river.

We continued to explore ruins along some trails on the bank of Minneapolis until the sun was set too low to safely crawl over felled trees and steep inclines. As the sun fully dipped behind the skyline and then the horizon beyond that we walked along the original Main Street, cobblestones and all! He put his arm around me as we crossed the University Avenue bridge back into the city where we caught a bus; on the bus played "kitchen" with two little boys sitting in front of us. Sigh.

The Tuesday night before our downtown adventures we walked through Reservoir Park and found a place in a clearing to sit, rest and talk. The trees above us were cleared so that we could see the sky so we lay on our backs tracing the constellations together. He opened up to me about his life (and me about mine) and after 2 hours we walked back to my place. When my fish died he walked with me to the cemetery to bury FATSO (RIP little buddy, I miss you) and he didn't laugh when I cried. He respects me and my body-- probably more than I do.

He's not a believer (and with both of our situations) perhaps this isn't the right time to be pursuing a relationship but as Elvis wrote, "even fools rush in." Justin and I aren't official, but I don't think he'd deny that there's some commitment to one another. To be honest with you all I suppose that he and I really should re-arrange the boundaries of our out-of-context relationship but I can't bring myself to change anything.

In other news, after over a month of job searching (okay, I didn't look nearly as hard as I should or could have) I got the position at Subway! I'm starting above minimum wage, 10cents more than I even asked for! It's a one minute walk from my front door to the store (no transportation costs!) and the hours should be fairly consistent and fair once I get passed training! I'm beyond thankful for this job!

Now, if only I can get caught up on my past-due debts and then get set ahead of them... anyways :) Sara and Hannah have been gone since Thursday. I can't wait for them to come back so that we can turn the heat on! Right now it's 52 degrees outside and windy. Inside, the house is only 58degrees! I've had 5 blankets on my bed! Proof:

But I have to admit that now that autumn has returned to October I'm once again enjoying it! I've been on a Modest Mouse kick lately... old stuff. And I can't get enough mocha-chai coffee either. What can't you live without this fall?

Welp, guys and gals I better be off to get something accomplished for the day. I'm thinking a bike ride is in order. (What you don't know is that my last bike ride ended up in me, heaving, nearly passed out, and thoroughly embarrassed.) Sigh, October you're being so wonderful to me!