You know, this is another post-worthy question that I wish I would have given more time and energy to thinking about because honestly, I don't know. Here I am preparing to move across the country, in confident hope to grow closer to God through faith and to help him build his church but yet have spent so little time with him. Instead of spending time with my Savior and God I have frittered away my time on this silly computer. Every day I wake, work and then come home to sit in my bed staring at this screen until I go to sleep and the day begins again. I'm frustrated because with how many hours I waste a day online I could be doing things for the Kingdom. Or my mom. I've barely put effort into my recent posts and even less in my other blog where I had hoped to have running by now. Sigh.
If I am learning anything it would be this: that my time is precious, and Jesus is more worthy to receive that time than anything else. I thought James was the only idol in my life and that leaving would rid me of any others I didn't recognize. Last night while talking with a dear friend and sister-in-Christ the notion came to me that maybe this computer is one more thing that should be left behind. Tis a costly distraction, and a pricey loss if something were to happen.
How does any of this have to do with being a woman of God? If I don't spend any time with God who am I to call myself his follower, or his friend? And what does my life say about Him through my actions? If I'm hoping for God to recreate me and to set me apart as his daughter... making me great by his grace... how am I living my life through this hope? Shouldn't my life reflect this?
beauty quote of the day:
beauty is variable, ugliness is constant. (Douglas Horton)
This is beautiful, Elle. Keep the wondering heart you have. God loves it.
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