what you missed in May...

This is a day for reflecting. I started this year with the idea that I would tie up ends left flagrant and to untangle myself from whatever it is that I have become bound to; it's no secret that I haven't been even been remotely intentional in these pursuits. I'm doing my best to avoid these things actually. But I'll sort through that after things settle down for me... adding 2 jobs this month has dynamically shifted my schedule. I'm one who loves change and seeks it cautiously, but runs when it finds me. 

     life in photos, and other things     

Justin has been gone all month visiting his sister who lives in Florida. He comes home next week and honestly I am thrilled. With the way that I am withdrawing from most of my social circles this is one relationship that I still put effort in... even if it doesn't seem like it. I've always been someone be friends or at least acquaintances with everybody. But I've take a turn for the introvert and now only invest in few relationships. Anyway, we've been talking of a road trip for our birthdays (which are a day apart) in July. I remember freaking out when he told me his birthday was just a day after mine.

Kianna, the girl that I started mentoring in March, and I have been having some fun adventures lately. We went for a walk around Central Park and took these cute photos! I can't believe this gorgeous girl is only 15; she's so sweet and bright, and reminds me of myself at that age.

Hannah, my newest roommate, and I went canoeing one afternoon. It was warm and sunny and beautiful. I won't share the photos after we went swimming though... my make up was more than streaked down my face! I loved being out on the water with the golden sun setting our course for the beach across the lake; this is something I could definitely do again! PS. We even made plans to sneakily swim across the lake at midnight! Dun-dun-dun!

For Memorial Day weekend I made an impropmtu trip up to the family cabin; every 3 weekend holiday of the summer (Memorial, Indepence and Labor day weekends) my uncle John has a pig roast. It's a big deal for our family and family friends. On a whim I swept up Arianna to take her with me. Turns out we were a day late! So we headed over to my uncle Al's cabin for the night. I took these sneaky shots of my cousin Jess and her son, Eamon and Arianna and my cousin Brian. Not the most flattering photos but I don't think you mind! Right?

These last few are from Monday when Kianna and I went to a Twins game at the new Target Feild. We had seats behind home plate but waayyyyyy at the top of the seats. Considering both of us have an insane fear of heights (oh, and balance issues as well) it's a wonder we even made it up there! Since it was her first game ever, and only my second I think it's important to mention that neither of us knows a lick about the sport of Baseball so most of the time we just people watched and talked; and took some cute pictures together of course! We left before the game ended but it's safe to say that it was time well spent.

Phew! That's quite the post... thanks for reading :) I can't wait to see what June brings! Also, did you know that you can comment on my blog? If you don't have a google id or blogger account just submit it anonymously (make sure to put your name in your comment so I know who you are though; It won't appear right away but I'll publish it after I read it! 

am i alone?

Oh, hello again! It feels good to be writing on my blog again. This is something that I do mostly for my own sanity. It feels safe here.

Anyways, I wanted to share these photos from March. I know it's a bit late but with the cold weather a few weeks ago and the recent stormy activity I am craving the beautiful, breezy sunshine we had a while back! Justin took these when we went for a walk around Nicollet Island.

 After the walk I joined my brother for a Timberwolves game. While I don't watch sports on my own I love spending time with my family. The quality time is what is important to me; it's one of my love languages (my primary is Words of Affirmation). A friend brought it up that our love language is pretty much the antidote to our "lie"... whatever it is that we believe to be true that we live and function out of.  My lie is that "I am alone."

That lie is a question that everything in my life is attempting to prove wrong. Unknowingly I am asking myself, "am I alone?"  But the things that I've experienced in the past have convinced me that it's true; there is nothing that can make me believe differently. It's in the process of bringing that lie to the front (literally) of my brain and dealing with it cognitively that I can override it's false-truth. My question and lie are stained into my habit and nature. Interesting, huh? 

aaaaand moving on! Gah! This is the face that Justin makes at me most of the time usually after I say or do something that is both adorable and uncool. He's in Florida visiting his sister for a month or so. Who am I going to dork around this city with this summer?  Oh, and did you check out the latest tune-in Tuesday? Well, that's all for now! I love you, darlings!

Oh, hello May!

I admit that I am glad April is over and while I don't have much vision for this new month just yet, I'm going to hope that it brings some sweetness back into my life.  

          life: and other things                      

I applied to a position at Como Park Zoo and Conservatory and got a job in the gift shop.
I almost accepted a Craigslist offer to be a live-in girlfriend/house wife.

I got both of my tax returns on the same day that I got paid.
And then I spent most of it instead of paying bills.
Considered moving to anywhere but here. 

Get the May calender {above} from Dear Friend

        on another note:                                

The last few months I have been avoiding pretty much everything from my relationships, my responsibilities and the things that I vowed this year to untangle. Instead of reaching beyond the surface in anything I prefer to keep every thing at a shallow comfort level. It's a quality of mine that often frustrates me because I want to invest deeper into my relationships and grow in my passions but at every knot in this ribbon of my life I drop everything and hermit myself away.

I don't know how to stop running and to start digging.

tune in Tuesday

It's been a while since I did Tune-in Tuesday This is where I feature the artists and songs that I'm jamming to lately. Whether it's local to the mid-west or mainstream, full-steam-ahead bands, I'm certain that you'll find something you like too! I'll post in 1 to 3 categories:

• new 
• new to me 
• renewed 

I'm playing Gotye on repeat and if you don't know who the Belgium-born, Aussie musician is then make sure to take a look at his Youtube or just turn on your radio. The song Somebody That I Used to Know (ft. Kimbra) is now entering the "overplayed" category for most people (like me, who's been following this artist for almost a year). Oh, and you can find him on his Last.fm too!

I'll spare the biography on this post because it's not worth it; if you want to succumb to the hype then feel free to just start typing his name into Google. I debated whether or not to even feature Gotye but with my personal life in disarray this song:  I Feel Better  from Making Mirrors (the artists third studio album) has been a source of sanity and hope. The oldies pop rock feel of the horns blends with the funky bass and keys in a way that's reminiscent of a more pure time in music. It's a feel good song that, while it hasn't gotten Top 100 ratings since being released in October 2011, is certain to lift spirits.